Post by chiprockskip on Mar 11, 2016 17:54:47 GMT
I'm sorry Sparky little mate, i know your letter should have been on 3rd Jan but someone decided to take out the telegraph pole in Dec and cut off the internet so i'm sorry your letters a little late but it dosn't mean i've not thought about you. I put some flowers out for you and lit a candle and that's alot more than some people get Sparky. Not that love can be measured in flowers or candles because it cannot. Love comes from inside little mate its a feeling, one that i've had and still do have for you and all the other little mates i was lucky enough to have in my life. And its a feeling that i'm sure i've seen in you.You where only 4 months old when you came in to my life you were scared i'll be honest you where brought to be a friend for little poorly Skipper but within days he'd gone, off to find his best mate Rocky i like to believe. Only 1 week later you were sitting on my finger. A little unsure but a really brave little one. You got more relaxed and we became friends. Then poor little broken Bluey came along and i was privileged enough to see it again, how you Sparky took to that little bird you sort of abandoned me which was fine because it was like you knew he needed you more. Yes i know that people will say it was just another bird of the same kind. But there was more than that eh Sparky you knew somehow that he needed a friend, the way you let him sleep with his head on your back or chest. Even moving about the cage you'd wait for him and he'd follow. It was like you where saying "c'mon you need to drink now" or "let's eat now".
I don't know Sparky but just like Rocky and Skipper, it looked alot like compassion to me. and i know i have seen your kind in pain, i have seen you in fear. i have seen you happy and curious so why not compassion and love ! We know don't we Sparky.
You where young and clever little mate and when Bluey died at the vets you looked for him but again it was like you knew he'd gone and you'd done your job, been his best friend till the end and i know he loved you for it. And so did i. Poor Bluey broken in mind as Rocky looked after Skipper broken in body. I read people on hear refer to your kind as Angles... maybe eh just maybe.
But i do know one thing You Sparky and Bluey, Skipper, Rocky and Chippy Chips all helped me too you came into my life and where there for me when my life was at a low. It's funny it's as if you where giving me a message. I used to watch Skipper get up and fight for life every day. And how big strong Rocky looked after him, you and Bluey too. And Chippy Chips always happy and pleased to see me. Even if you didn't know it you where helping me and truth be told neither did i untill i look back.
You and i could have gone on to be great mates little Sparky but now comes the hardest part of all and even in this there's something, i don't know what but something that spared me pain untill i was strong enough to bear it. For i now know it was me that ended you i went on a quest to find your killer, looking at fleeces and seeds any link and then a few weeks ago i rememberd. Why didn't i remember before ? Why did i do it because i knew not to. I used disinfectant when i cleaned you out not once but twice. The first time must have ended Rocky and Skipper the 5 months later you.
I know i'm trying to comfort myself by sating you came and looked after me then having finished your jobs and your little sprits needed elsewhere you left. Romantic notion i was going through a hard time the woman i loved and i had split up and my mind just wasn't on what i was doing, still its strange that i couldn't even remember until now.
It really hurts but i can bear it now well kind of. My life's filled out again now and there's no time for little mates
. I sometimes pass a pet shop on my way to the gym and i listen to your brothers and sisters shouting and singing, it always makes me smile and sometimes a tear will come.
I cannot believe what i did but i wan't you all to know i never ment any harm to any of you. I loved you all and miss you dearly/ There is somethig special about you guys and i count myself so lucky to have been part of it and to have felt with and for you. Look after yourself Sparky and all the rest of my little flock i do so hope we'll meet again, Love you all.
