Post by chiprockskip on Jul 30, 2016 17:37:17 GMT
Hello little mate, two years now and i still think of you every day. I've just put some flowers out where you lie plenty of daisy's co's i know you love them. When ever i brought flowers for your mum it was never long till you had a munch.
I have dreaded writing this letter to you little mate because i now know what caused you to pass on, i searched for a long time to find an answer, i posted on this site and asked vets. Then earlier this year it suddenly came to me. It was me all along Rock. Yes it was me who made a mistake little mate. That cost you, Skipper and Sparky so dear. You will never know how much it hurt me when i realised what i'd done. I was such a fool. The only explanation i can give you is that i was more upset over me and your mum splitting up than i thought and for a while i wasn't thinking straight. But that change's nothing for you. All i can offer is sorry yes i'm so sorry. That's not enough, it wont bring you back. I want you to know that i never meant any harm to you or the others, i loved you all. All i ever wanted was to give you good lives, happy lives and yes long lives. But i got it wrong and its hard to live with. I said no more and now i've filled my life with other things so there's no time any more for little mates even if i wanted them. I'd like you to know i've learned my lesson all be it too late. And i look after the little patch under the window where you and all your friends lie. At each of your heads there's a little garden light that pops on when it gets dark i hope you like that, Chippy will.
I often remember the fun times we had and your little voice saying "Rocky biscuit" and "i'll ask him...i'll ask Skipper" i'll never know where you got that from, and i'll never know what it was that you where going to ask. But i so hope you did. I remember the times that you'd sit on my finger and i'd talk to you in that droning monotone voice that i'd do, then slowly your head would drop forward and you'd settle down and to my astonishment you'd be asleep. Thank you for that Big Rock it made me so proud that you trusted me so much.
I remember so many times we had together but i can't help remembering that morning that you left this life behind. The way you lay in my hand, one wing hanging over then a last effort and you pulled that wing in and straightened your self up, had a last look around. Then just put your little head down. You where gone. It's painful to think about and i try to gain some comfort in thinking that you didn't know what was happening...or why. And at least you had me with you because for all the mistakes i'd made you still had trust in me. I hope you felt the love i had for you.
I still love you Rock and i so dearly miss you, you where the leader of the flock and i hope you still find the highest place and do your morning songs my big Rocky Rock Rocker. There will always be a place in my heart for you along side a sadness for how it ended. I'm sorry mate and as they like to say, fly high mate and somehow i know you will.
I have dreaded writing this letter to you little mate because i now know what caused you to pass on, i searched for a long time to find an answer, i posted on this site and asked vets. Then earlier this year it suddenly came to me. It was me all along Rock. Yes it was me who made a mistake little mate. That cost you, Skipper and Sparky so dear. You will never know how much it hurt me when i realised what i'd done. I was such a fool. The only explanation i can give you is that i was more upset over me and your mum splitting up than i thought and for a while i wasn't thinking straight. But that change's nothing for you. All i can offer is sorry yes i'm so sorry. That's not enough, it wont bring you back. I want you to know that i never meant any harm to you or the others, i loved you all. All i ever wanted was to give you good lives, happy lives and yes long lives. But i got it wrong and its hard to live with. I said no more and now i've filled my life with other things so there's no time any more for little mates even if i wanted them. I'd like you to know i've learned my lesson all be it too late. And i look after the little patch under the window where you and all your friends lie. At each of your heads there's a little garden light that pops on when it gets dark i hope you like that, Chippy will.
I often remember the fun times we had and your little voice saying "Rocky biscuit" and "i'll ask him...i'll ask Skipper" i'll never know where you got that from, and i'll never know what it was that you where going to ask. But i so hope you did. I remember the times that you'd sit on my finger and i'd talk to you in that droning monotone voice that i'd do, then slowly your head would drop forward and you'd settle down and to my astonishment you'd be asleep. Thank you for that Big Rock it made me so proud that you trusted me so much.
I remember so many times we had together but i can't help remembering that morning that you left this life behind. The way you lay in my hand, one wing hanging over then a last effort and you pulled that wing in and straightened your self up, had a last look around. Then just put your little head down. You where gone. It's painful to think about and i try to gain some comfort in thinking that you didn't know what was happening...or why. And at least you had me with you because for all the mistakes i'd made you still had trust in me. I hope you felt the love i had for you.
I still love you Rock and i so dearly miss you, you where the leader of the flock and i hope you still find the highest place and do your morning songs my big Rocky Rock Rocker. There will always be a place in my heart for you along side a sadness for how it ended. I'm sorry mate and as they like to say, fly high mate and somehow i know you will.
