Jan 12, 2012 22:54:32 GMT
Nicola
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Post by Nicola on Jun 14, 2014 7:43:37 GMT
On Wednesday afternoon when I got home from school, I found that darling Lilly had past away She had been sick for a few weeks but she was brightening up and I thought she was on the mend A couple of weeks ago when she first looked sick I separated her from the rest of the flock and she came inside in the warmth for a few days, and she soon looked healthy again so I returned her to the aviary. But the day I put her in she went down hill again and back to where she started. I was starting to think it wasn't something physically wrong with her but-if it was possible- mental, because she was healthy in the morning, then as soon as she went back with the others she was sick again and wouldn't sit with the others- she would just sit alone on a lower perch and eat food on the bottom of the aviary, almost like she had bird social anxiety or something. It was distressing for me to watch because I didn't know how to help her So she came inside again and as expected she perked up nearly immediately. Over the next 2 days she was eating almost non-stop. She spent her days eating. So once again I thought she was getting better and over Tuesday and Wednesday I was deciding when to put her back in the aviary. I was going to do it Wednesday morning but I ended up running out of time so instead Wednesday afternoon. But I never got the chance She was acting quite strange over Tuesday, but still active, just like she was baby with heaps of energy. She looked a bit more down Wednesday morning but nothing overly unusual. But she was obviously sick the whole time, but I still don't understand it. I could keep talking about the days leading up to it but I actually don't know what to say about-. Well you know. I don't know how to explain how I feel, its like losing a best friend. No one can break into you and your best friends friendship right? Lilly and I had a special bond, one that was always there. She was my 4th budgie and 1,2 and 3 have already gone to budgie heaven, so you can understand how much I miss her. It feels like my best friend isn't there anymore Lilly was the kind of bird that someone would look at and say 'I don't like that one, she looks grumpy' because I knew her as the bird that would sit, sleep and only come alive if I visited the aviary with something in my hands, which she always thought as being carrot or something for her. But she was beautiful and I loved her. I looked after her and her babies when she was breeding, and somehow I think she knew that I was helping her. She understood. It feels like some major part is missing now, and it is. Lilly is missing, and she meant the world and more to me. I miss her more than can be easily understood. But I know she isn't uncomfortable anymore like she was, and for that I'm glad. But it still hurts You only get one chance at life, and it feels like we had a magnificent life together compacted into 4 years. Quoting 'The Fault in Our Stars', "I cannot tell you how grateful I am for our little infinity". I miss you Lilly x RIP Lilly 2010-11/6/14
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Post by mizloco on Jun 14, 2014 8:02:13 GMT
RIP Lily fly high little one. Sorry for your loss x
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Post by BudgiesBuddy on Jun 14, 2014 8:03:14 GMT
Oh, I am sorry for your loss. Rest in peace little Lilly. We all will miss you.
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Post by samwiseg on Jun 14, 2014 8:40:36 GMT
Oh poor you! Am so sorry to hear your news Nic, Lilly was an absolute sweetheart. I am devastated for you and understand COMPLETELY how you feel when you lose a bud that you are so close to and is your best friend I know they say time will heal but give yourself time to grieve for little Lilly and understand that she did know about the love and care you gave her. She is in no discomfort now, and will always remain with you in that special place x RIP Little Lilly
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Oct 6, 2011 7:41:27 GMT
Marianne Marlow
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Post by Marianne Marlow on Jun 14, 2014 9:15:01 GMT
Rest in peace in budgie heaven Lilly x
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Post by Hezz on Jun 14, 2014 9:41:13 GMT
Oh, Nic! I am so, so sorry. It must be quite strange not to know how to interpret her behaviour, but maybe she was trying to tell you she needed to be away from the others ........ Although we are not supposed to have favourites, it really is alright to do so, and with Lilly being with you the longest it is completely understandable that she is going to hold a special place in your heart. My heart is feeling your hurt, my girl. For Lilly, rest in peace, you special little bird. Take time out to say a sweet hello to Blue for me. He is as much loved as you are. Fly high, little girl. xxx
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Post by ffiscool on Jun 14, 2014 10:45:32 GMT
I am so sorry! It is hard and sadness stays ages, but so do all the great memories. Fly high Lily
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Post by OP on Jun 14, 2014 10:53:27 GMT
For once I am lost for words. Rest in Peace Lilly. You will be missed.
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Post by Moogie on Jun 14, 2014 15:29:08 GMT
so so so sorry
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Post by lemonade on Jun 14, 2014 18:11:38 GMT
I'm so sorry to hear about Lilly We all understand here on the forum. It's hard, especially as you become so attached and they are more than just budgies, but part of our lives and family. I hope she finds my Lemonade and Peanut up there, as well as all the other beautiful buds who have sadly left us. Fly high beautiful girl x
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Post by stace on Jun 15, 2014 7:07:09 GMT
Fly high, Lilly. She was lovely.
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Post by sweetpea on Jun 15, 2014 11:44:39 GMT
So sorry to hear this. From those photos I can see she was magnificent - especially the 2nd one. Fly high little girl.
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Post by budgiefriend on Jun 15, 2014 19:24:41 GMT
Rest in Peace, sweet beautiful Lilly. Keep her cute face and happy song close to your heart, and she will be with you forever. They leave us much too soon, Nic. I am so sorry for your loss.
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Post by milliej on Jul 1, 2014 10:17:14 GMT
It's my belief that your little lily is safe and now completely well and flying free. ['] God knows even when a tiny sparrow falls. My prayers for your loss.
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Post by jellybean on Jul 1, 2014 10:39:54 GMT
I know exactly how you feel. I lost my wee boy Charlie a year ago come August. I found this beautiful poem on the Internet, every time I read it, it made me cry, but it also helped bring me some comfort hope it helps you too. Soar high little one. WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME, AND I'M NOT THERE TO SEE, THE SUN WILL RISE AND FIND YOUR EYES, ALL FILLED WITH TEARS FOR ME I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVED ME, AS MUCH AS I LOVED YOU, AND EACH TIME YOU THINK OF ME I KNOW YOU'LL MISS ME TOO BUT WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME, PLEASE TRY TO UNDERSTAND, AN ANGEL CAME AND CALLED MY NAME, AND I STEPPED UP ON HER HAND SHE SAID MY PLACE WAS READY, IN BIRD HEAVEN FAR ABOVE, BUT THAT I'D HAVE TO LEAVE BEHIND, ALL THOSE I DEARLY LOVE IF I COULD RELIVE YESTERDAY EVEN FOR A LITTLE WHILE, I'D FLY OVER AND KISS YOU, JUST TO SEE YOU SMILE SO WHEN TOMORROW STARTS WITHOUT ME, DON'T THINK WE'RE FAR APART, FOR EVERY TIME YOU THINK OF ME, I'M RIGHT THERE IN YOUR HEART
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