Post by mona on Oct 29, 2023 6:24:39 GMT
It's been quite a while, since I had logged into the forum..While I'm still catching up, I hope everyone is doing well..
Cookie flew above the rainbow a month back, due to a respiratory infection. She had so much nasal discharge.. I couldn't see her suffer in her last moments, but i couldn't leave her side too.. I still cannot forget the look in her eyes at the last moment. It must have been so painful, as if her eyes screamed save me. Being all alone at home, it was so difficult to wrap up everything. But mom said I should and I have to, since she was loved all this time..and she had to be sent away with love too.
My baby suffered a lot.. She struggled and fought for about two weeks before she passed away. I felt pathetic to not be able to save her. She was really brave until the end and it's a pity that we don't have good vet services here. She spent four years with me and she must be 5 to 6 year old. We hardly slept for those two weeks, taking turns to look after her at nights too, to check on her every 3 to 4 hours. Somewhere, I had a feeling that we might not be able to save her, but nothing can prepare you for the worst, when it happens! All I wanted to do was to curl in the bed and just lie there.. I miss all the beautiful moments and my bond with her..She was just there always... She was most intelligent bird of the flock. She was the most graceful birdie too.. Loved her beautiful eyes..
Loosing first pet is heart breaking. Knowing now that both Cookie and Breezie are no longer with me.. It feels as if a part of me went away with them.. They came in my life at a phase, when it was difficult for me to cope up with life.. and they gave me the reason to hold on and move on.. I guess that's more the reason, I'm super grateful to both of them for being in my life. I would like to think that they are helping someone else in some other place or some other world, just like they did with me.
It's hard to look at everything in the bird room - the first large cage i bought - its still called Cookie's cage. She was the only yellow birdie of the flock.. The sunshine of the flock.. Her absence is felt through out the room.. She is resting near my home under a tree, where we planted a yellow flower plant as well, with her favorite 4 year old pine wood swing, bamboo balls, millets and all her favorite things.
Though I have no doubts about the quality of life they had, still it's difficult to move on with life. After Breezie went away, Cookie paired up with one of my mom's birdie Berry for quite a while. He abandoned her for another birdie and then she paired up with another rescue birdie Rye. She was very loyal to the one she bonded to. Though berry (the playboy of the flock) tried flirting with her again, she was ferocious towards him.. He had become his ex by then!
She played well, ate well, slept well. Her eggs were always infertile, so I had mixed one of the fertile eggs from another birdie. She raised the baby boy Zuzu as her own. Hope she has reunited with Breezie..
I couldn't go into the birdie room for a day after she went away, but then I had to look at everyone else. Fortunately, she was separated on time and no one else caught any infection. Being responsible for them is hard, to be honest, but they have to be cared for, as well. I blamed myself for everything I could.. I clean better these days and change water twice or thrice a day, just to make sure that I'm doing my best...
I never knew how much I loved her, until she departed. She was such an important part of our life..
I'm planning to create a scrapbook/journal for birdies.. Photos backed up over cloud are all lost there.. There's no time to look at it. I wish to keep everyone's memories in my journal - the ones who left and ones I have. I wish to make a photo frame with their photos as well. I wish to remember their good moments rather than last moments...
Cookie flew above the rainbow a month back, due to a respiratory infection. She had so much nasal discharge.. I couldn't see her suffer in her last moments, but i couldn't leave her side too.. I still cannot forget the look in her eyes at the last moment. It must have been so painful, as if her eyes screamed save me. Being all alone at home, it was so difficult to wrap up everything. But mom said I should and I have to, since she was loved all this time..and she had to be sent away with love too.
My baby suffered a lot.. She struggled and fought for about two weeks before she passed away. I felt pathetic to not be able to save her. She was really brave until the end and it's a pity that we don't have good vet services here. She spent four years with me and she must be 5 to 6 year old. We hardly slept for those two weeks, taking turns to look after her at nights too, to check on her every 3 to 4 hours. Somewhere, I had a feeling that we might not be able to save her, but nothing can prepare you for the worst, when it happens! All I wanted to do was to curl in the bed and just lie there.. I miss all the beautiful moments and my bond with her..She was just there always... She was most intelligent bird of the flock. She was the most graceful birdie too.. Loved her beautiful eyes..
Loosing first pet is heart breaking. Knowing now that both Cookie and Breezie are no longer with me.. It feels as if a part of me went away with them.. They came in my life at a phase, when it was difficult for me to cope up with life.. and they gave me the reason to hold on and move on.. I guess that's more the reason, I'm super grateful to both of them for being in my life. I would like to think that they are helping someone else in some other place or some other world, just like they did with me.
It's hard to look at everything in the bird room - the first large cage i bought - its still called Cookie's cage. She was the only yellow birdie of the flock.. The sunshine of the flock.. Her absence is felt through out the room.. She is resting near my home under a tree, where we planted a yellow flower plant as well, with her favorite 4 year old pine wood swing, bamboo balls, millets and all her favorite things.
Though I have no doubts about the quality of life they had, still it's difficult to move on with life. After Breezie went away, Cookie paired up with one of my mom's birdie Berry for quite a while. He abandoned her for another birdie and then she paired up with another rescue birdie Rye. She was very loyal to the one she bonded to. Though berry (the playboy of the flock) tried flirting with her again, she was ferocious towards him.. He had become his ex by then!
She played well, ate well, slept well. Her eggs were always infertile, so I had mixed one of the fertile eggs from another birdie. She raised the baby boy Zuzu as her own. Hope she has reunited with Breezie..
I couldn't go into the birdie room for a day after she went away, but then I had to look at everyone else. Fortunately, she was separated on time and no one else caught any infection. Being responsible for them is hard, to be honest, but they have to be cared for, as well. I blamed myself for everything I could.. I clean better these days and change water twice or thrice a day, just to make sure that I'm doing my best...
I never knew how much I loved her, until she departed. She was such an important part of our life..
I'm planning to create a scrapbook/journal for birdies.. Photos backed up over cloud are all lost there.. There's no time to look at it. I wish to keep everyone's memories in my journal - the ones who left and ones I have. I wish to make a photo frame with their photos as well. I wish to remember their good moments rather than last moments...