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Post by Hezz on Nov 12, 2021 0:31:49 GMT
What you have described sounds perfectly understandable to me. Photos of the wedding must have been lovely to go through as well. I like Ira’s ideas of some pampering at home, whether from a professional or close friend/family who are good at that sort of thing. I think you are being rather wonderful. Xx
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Post by clt80 on Nov 12, 2021 7:35:30 GMT
It does rather feel like a permanent lockdown Marianne Marlow I have a beauty voucher that is due to run out, I usually have massages but you're not allowed whilst on chemo so I've opted for a facial. That's next week so it's something to look forward to. A pamper is good, I love a bubble bath with either a book or the radio on and I do this daily: shower in morning and a long soak in the evening - it warms me up too, I'm always cold. I have bath bombs, love them. Food is a bit of an issue in terms of nausea and I'm mainly just drinking water, my kidneys are working flat out according to my last blood test. The blood test for my kidneys was 55, it is suppose to be a number between 53 and 70. If I go below 53 they will stop the chemo until my kidneys have recovered. So water water and water for me. Obv you can't have alcohol, and I haven't missed it. I wasn't a big drinker but I've not missed it, I may go tee total for good. The jigsaw passed a good hour last night, haven't done one since I was a child- actually enjoyed it!!!!
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Post by ffiscool on Nov 12, 2021 8:06:41 GMT
If you’re not eating much, could you have a milkshake - my dad used to love them, added malt, ice cream etc - so were calorific but went down easier than food
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Post by suesbird on Nov 12, 2021 8:39:02 GMT
Glad you had a nice time. Have you tried the Wasijig jigsaws. They are jigsaws that you make with the picture back to front. So what you see on the box is the picture but taken from reverse. Get's your brain thinking. Take it easy, wont be long now and you are doing so well. xxx
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Post by jellybean on Nov 12, 2021 8:58:32 GMT
Can only reiterate what others have said Cheryl, you will have good days and bad days, but the bad days will be less, once your health improves.
Be good to yourself 💐
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Post by willowsmum on Nov 16, 2021 23:29:45 GMT
You are doing brilliantly Cheryl. You must be going through a real rollercoaster of emotions every day and you are so strong to stay so positive through it all. The good days will outweigh the bad eventually and it will all be distant memory. Big hugs x
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Post by clt80 on Nov 17, 2021 19:30:34 GMT
It's funny you mention milkshakes Fran, hubby had got me some months back and they just made me puke unfortunately.
The jigsaw I have is doing my head in (in a good way) almost finished it but it's harder than what I thought!!!!! Don't think I could do a back to front one - my brain power is seriously diminishing! 😁
I'm glad to say although some days I've felt a bit low, nothing has come close to Wednesday last week. That has to be one of the lowest points since I started chemo, with the exception of losing Alfie, that almost killed me and I don't think my heart will ever recover.
I've my 5th counseling session with macmillan tomorrow by telephone. I can have 6 in total but I think I am going to end after tomorrow's session.
In the future, gosh - just writing that word 'future' has given me goosepimples- I think I would look at a few more counseling sessions. I really think all of this has not hit me fully yet, I'm still in this mode of doing what I have to in order to live. When I think back to being told you have cancer, and having the surgery and not being allowed family or friends in visit, I don't know how I did it. Hubby couldn't even come in to drop me off.
Yet I just walked in like I was going to work, or visiting a hairdresser. I can only remember thinking i need this killer out of my body, I hated every second from diagnosis to surgery knowing it was growing. I was desperate for the op and for the tumour to be out. It is going to hit me at some point, and I'm guessing it's when chemo is over.
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Post by ffiscool on Nov 17, 2021 20:03:15 GMT
Ah shame :-(.
I have no idea how I’d be if it was me. I think, for most people, a survival instinct kicks in. Both nieces’ husbands have had different forms of cancer in the last few years.
You’ve been so strong, so yes, it will hit you at some point, but in a omg it could have been a different scenario, but I did it.
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Post by starrymist on Nov 17, 2021 22:14:24 GMT
I’ve not managed to read all this thread but it sounds like you’ve had a really tough time of things. I hope that you are able to find the joy in each day where you can. When I find life hard I kind of split my days into bits - hours or even 5 minute chunks & just focus on getting through that bit. X
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Post by clt80 on Mar 6, 2022 16:29:08 GMT
Hello all!! Just wanted to pop on to say hello and that chemo finished 3 weeks ago! I still think about you all and the forum, but haven't been on for a while, hands have split and fingers a bit of a mess. I can't believe treatment is over, the reason for starting this thread was me wanting to thank everyone for all the help over the years, and also to say my goodbyes as I thought the end was near. But, I'm currently away enjoying a bit of sunshine. It's been a real tonic, physically and mentally. Being alone at home all day on top of feeling absolutely rubbish for months on end takes its toll mentally. But....now is the time to get my health back!!! I know I posted about losing my dog Alfie at the start of chemo, well I also lost my other dog lexie in January, she had a stroke. So things have been tough. The house feels different without their presence. Something nice that's happened is Rupert and ivy have coupled up....and ivy laid an egg. It was smashed when I found it (and worked out who laid it) so it got discarded. She's been persistent though, and you all know I don't breed and have been lucky really in that respect in that the hens aren't interested in breeding too. There was only every Shirley and John who outmastered me, and now ivy, and I can't throw her eggs away. So they've been inside in mabels big cage, they are currently on their holidays at my in laws. Apparently Rupert is quite noisy with his singing Also, I came across a post online about rehoming a budgie about 40 miles away from me. He'd been one of two and his pal has passed and he hadn't been the same since so his owners wanted him to be rehomed to somewhere with budgies. I made contact and they wanted pictures, videos etc. I sent these and they said they'd like him to come and live with me. I've 10 budgies now, so I've more than enough room....even though I said no more. I can't help feeling sorry for the little bud. So on my return we are going to make arrangements, either they drive to me or I drive to them. It was so nice his owners cared about where he goes, warmed my heart. Nothing much else is happening in the aviary, Desmond is in the middle of a threesome with Sam and Carmen. Bruce is needing his supplements, his liver issues sometimes make him a bit quiet. He is normally so loud and zooming. Everyone else is okay, Ron is getting on a bit now, I am unsure of his age but he doesnt fly so much now, his appetite is still second to none though!!! I hope everyone is okay and all the buds are doing well x
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Post by Marianne Marlow on Mar 6, 2022 16:34:36 GMT
Thanks for the update, I am so glad you're doing well and you're rehoming another little friend that needs a home
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Post by ffiscool on Mar 6, 2022 16:59:27 GMT
So nice to get your update and that treatment is finished. It’s lovely you’re away and in the sun. Not good obviously re Lexie, so hard.
Aww looking forward to hearing more on the new bud and all the buds’ adventures.
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Post by ariella on Mar 6, 2022 17:55:01 GMT
Well done on getting through the chemo. It must feel like a weight off your shoulders. I hope your hands and fingers soon heal; that sounds sore. I’m so sorry about Lexie. You had a lot of loss during your treatment, which I’m sure made it so much harder but I’m so pleased that you’re going to rehome again. Looking forward to hearing about him. Enjoy your break away and hope you soon build your health back up both mentally and physically.
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Post by tweetiepiesmom on Mar 6, 2022 22:51:09 GMT
So happy to hear the chemo is done and you are now healing back to health. So sad that you've lost both dogs, Alfie and Lexie.
Can't wait to hear about the new budgie you are rehoming and hopefully seeing pictures. Shall we expect to see Ivy's babies or are none of the eggs viable?
Hoping things continue to go well and that you'll enjoy taking more get away vacations.
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Post by criswell on Mar 6, 2022 23:15:50 GMT
It's really lovely to hear from you. It's great that the chemo is finished now and that you are getting some time away too. I hope your hands heal quickly.
I'm so sorry that you lost Lexie xx
I'm glad to hear the budgies are all doing well and that a new friend will be joining you soon. He is going to have such a great time living with you.
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