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Post by mona on Sept 14, 2021 6:06:45 GMT
He had been suffering from some internal serious disease, which if diagnosed could have given him a longer life. I don't know if I'm being selfish wanting him to be with me, even when he was suffering so much for past 6 months. Poor baby, he had been in so much pain all this time. I kept telling him that he has to get better and stay with me. He honored the wish for a long time, as much as he could hold on.
The foot issue, wing twitching, clicking sound everything was related to some internal disease. All I wish now is that a diagnostic lab opens up somewhere nearby, so that at least some tests can be performed on birdies, rather than just treating them based on assumptions. I'm angry at myself for being so clueless and at the vet/medical facilities over here. I wouldn't have taken him to the vet again, if I had known it was his last day!
Glad though that he spent the day preening, eating a little from his favorites and made a contact call/chirping voice very briefly twice before deciding to go away in the evening. I hope some day I can stop feeling responsible for his passing away.. He keeps visiting me in my dreams everytime I sleep.. I hope he is at peace without pain now.
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Post by jellybean on Sept 14, 2021 7:00:51 GMT
I'm so sorry mona. Fly high little fella.
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Post by Marianne Marlow on Sept 14, 2021 7:39:57 GMT
mona even if it had been diagnosed in a lab, there is no guarantee that he could have recovered from what was ailing him. Please don't beat yourself up about it, you are one of the good ones, one that cares, and you did your best, it's all we can do. x
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Post by ffiscool on Sept 14, 2021 9:03:46 GMT
It’s not remotely your fault. The symptom with the foot, was what was treated, you did so much for him, his quality of life.
You could look at it another way, if you hadn’t done as much as you had, he may have gone sooner. The fact he was eating etc that last day, shows he was happy.
I’m sorry it’s in your dreams 😒 but there’s not one of us who’ve lost a budgie, doesn’t have the same what ifs.
You’re a brilliant budgie mum
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Post by Hezz on Sept 15, 2021 1:23:17 GMT
Lab diagnoses generally rely on blood samples which our budgies have very little of to spare, so you may have ended up putting him through more trauma to find that correct diagnosis. We all feel that guilt about what might we have done better, but the reality is that most often there is nothing more that we could have done that would have made a skerrick of difference. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to grieve for Breezie, then get back into giving those others that very best of care that they will have become used to. Glad you have your mum with you.
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Post by willowsmum on Sept 27, 2021 10:02:49 GMT
Oh Mona, I am so very sorry to hear about Breezie's passing. My heart aches for you. He was such a special little boy and will be very sadly missed by everyone who knew him. You are an outstanding budgie mum and you gave him the best possible care. Thinking of you. Fly high little Breezie x
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